I’ve been in a quiet place mentally for the last few weeks. I keep wanting to show up and share things with you – our wedding and honeymoon trip in Vermont, married life, preparing for our next move, all of these big transformations that are happening in my life and within me specifically.
But I just feel quiet.
The season change is hitting me particularly badly this year. Maybe it’s just because I’m in the midwest after being on the east coast for all of my adult life. It gets light much later here at the edge of the time zone, and this has been a tough adjustment for me as an early riser. I feel like I’m just not waking up at all.
Whatever it is, I’m in a very ebb phase of the ebb and flow.
It’s okay. It’s where I am. I’m showing up from that place. I hope you’ll join me here.
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I had to write back.Not sure if that is the norm.
Firstly the image is beautiful and full of emotion and deep feelings.The colours seem quite spiritual.I have 2 black dogs and often walk them here in Yorkshire.
I live on the edge of the moor.
About 5 yrs ago and after many years working in the creative industry here i realised i had become quite isolated and in truth a lot bored having moved in to management and having ended up looking at spread sheets figures and sat in strategy meetings for what seemed like too long.
On top of that with 2 young children and a teenager (in a bad space at the time) and with a failing relationship i had to think hard about life.
I left my work,partner and jumped in to a new life.
5 yrs on i have remarried (in Texas a year ago) and have a wonderful partner.I live in the Yorkshire countryside but close to the town and i now have 2 dogs.
The mood in your photograph reminds me that we all have times when we need to take stock,go quiet and catch up with ourselves.And that that is ok.This day will pass and different times places and people will come and go.Taking some quiet time to consider where you are and where you are going might be just the right thing to do.
I am happy with so many things in my life and striving to find a way to reclaim my creative life and to earn a living. I have times when i am uncertain and i take heart from your thoughts today and remind myself that i do not always have to rush ahead.
This weekend i will be remembering your photograph and comments as i head out in to the cold autumn sunshine on the moors here in North Yorkshire.
Perhaps we share the need to spend quiet time.I know i share your mixed emotions about change,place and being overwhelmed by life and life events at times.
I wish you well and some bright winter snowy sunshine days ahead
Jules